This kind of thing only happens in films ...

You know that perfect scene in the film? 

The one where the boy finally declares his love for the girl ...

I actually love Andrew Lincon a little

Or the friend in the cafe gives the protagonist the perfect pep talk ...

The film that makes me grateful
for every decision I've ever been
allowed to make!

And the hero makes the right decision and someone is saved ...

"Oh you're Celtic? ... There's lovely"

All of these are cracking plot devices, don't get me wrong I love a good love declaration/pep talk/happy ending, but they're hardly realistic. Life happens bit by bit and very few of us will ever have our faith realigned in a perfect pep talk, or unburden ourselves in the snow on christmas eve to our dream partner, or ever have the chance to save an entire family and change history.

However, I did indeed have one of these strange only-happens-in-a-film moments recently:

I was sat on a train, on a spur of the moment trip home after a few hellish days, straight off a night shift still in uniform sat quietly with a book and bottle of squash. I had been giving myself a bit of a hard time and thinking about dropping out of the course a bit, mainly because I kind of lost faith in myself and started doubting my own knowledge to the point where I was making mistakes because I was second guessing myself. Anyway, feeling a bit shitty and wandering what the point was I was considering dropping out and was content with sloping off home to work my way through an assignment and then I met this woman, who was sat opposite me and who spotted my uniform, that was unsuccessfully hidden under my cardigan. And she changed everything.

She was a midwife, who had qualified two years ago at my own university, and the hour or so we sat and talked convinced me that I am absolutely on the right path, with a mixture of anecdotes which remind me of the good times, and her own stories of training which reminded me that the second year is a long hard slog that no-one enjoys and only the ones who can persevere through it are meant to get through it.

A strange moment of pure co-incidence, where a total stranger who I just happened to sit opposite helped me out and at just the right time when I was at my lowest eb where I needed to be and which was the right path (or track - geddit!) for me.

I shall finish by saying - trains are awesome, I love trains. I've met cool, lovely, funny and just plain odd people travelling around the place, always talk to people on trains because how many other times in life are you going to spend a few hours sat with a group of total strangers, unable to leave and all in exactly the same position?

Student nursing 101: how to change your body clock!

Now, you may well be one of those people who can just flip a switch, set their alarm for 5:30am and just get up and be ready no - problem. Well, for the rest of us it takes a little more work, so here are Nurse P's top tried and tested methods for switching your body clock!

The "slow and steady" method

Set your alarm clock a little bit earlier every day over the weekend to get yourself sorted.
eg:

Saturday - 7:30am
Sunday   - 6:30am
Monday  - 5:30am

Great for: those who love to slowly acclimatize and love early mornings
Bad for    : those who like a lie-in or have any intentions of getting drunk on Friday or Saturday night.

The "make your self tired" method

Exhaust yourself the day before placement; run everywhere, cycle a full load of shopping back from Asda, take the kids out for a three hour trek around the park, make a souffle, have loads of sex, swim 10 miles and then do a load of ironing. And then chill out in bed with a cup of herbal tea and a good book.

Great for: those who have a million and one thing to do and have the energy to do them all in one day.
Bad for   : those who are always organised in advance or who like Sunday afternoon tele with a glass of wine.

The "Don't stop 'till you drop" method

Have a massive lie in on the Saturday, and then work straight through the night until the next evening, not going to sleep until around 7 or 8pm on the Sunday - so you wake up refreshed and sorted on the Monday!

Great for: Night owls who like to work until dawn on assignments, and then keep going all the next day.
Bad for   : Anyone with important stuff to do on Sunday, you will not be up to operating heavy machinery! Or anyone who may well take a nap.

2nd year blues

All through the first year of my course you will find hoards of people (by which I mean every-one) who are either newly qualified or third years who say a variation on the following:

"The second year's the hardest, you will cry and breakdown and want to drop out. the second year will be the ...

WORST YEAR OF YOUR LIFE!"

So - is it true?

Uhhhh ...

Ummm ... 

Well ... 

OK ... yes!

Where I am in my head!

 I give up - I can try and pretend that they're all liars, but they're not. These two months back at uni have been really bad, I've felt lost, scared, snowed under, like dropping out, like jacking it all in to work in a bar in Australia! People say that whatever your course the 'Second year blues' is fairly common, you've lost the energy of year 1, and the scary exciting almost finished feeling of year 3 is yet to come. So am I alone? 

I have friends who've thought about dropping out recently, because the work load suddenly goes from 0-60 in precisely no time, and for some reason everyone seems to be doing far better than you. The work load is insane, not because it's massively hard (although ...) but because nursing courses are full of little tiny bitty things that need filling out and completed, which is confusing and infuriating and crazy.

Oh and there's a three hour exam too .... yeah!

Three hours ... WTF!?

The makings of a good nurse: practical or theoretical!

Textbook good nurse:
Florence Nightingale 

What does make a good nurse? 

Answers on a postcard please. Because, really, truly, I don't know! You see the problem is, what is on paper as a good nurse  doesn't always translate into a good nurse in practice.

The nursing courses today are all degree courses, which is fantastic in empowering nurses and giving us a broad skill set that means we can work as skilled, well trained healthcare professionals. However, it also makes the occupation much more, exclusive. Suddenly people who would make awesome nurses, who could more than cope with the drugs calculations, the dressings, the comforting patients and the long hours, but can't write an essay to save their life, or reference an article for that matter. Does that make them a bad nurse? Or unsuitable for the occupation?

Not in my opinion, but then again I'm biased. I am terrible at essays, I love my lectures, love my placements and without sounding like a smug idiot - I think I'm a damn good nurse. Obviously I'm a second year nurse - I've got a long way to go, but I feel that I do do a good job when I'm on duty. I make sacrifices for the work and I love it (not making sacrifices, I mean the job!) but arguably I may never make it to being staff nurse because I really struggle with my written work.

Is it fair? Is it right? And is it the best way of selecting the best nurses in the country - especially when I for one know student nurses who are piss-poor at placement and awesome at exams and therefor are going along like super-stars ... when actually they might not make the best nurses.

Just to show that I'm not an embittered old harpy - I also have some lush friends who are brilliant on placement and brilliant at their assessments and will make brilliant nurses!

Back in the saddle!

So here we are - a brand new house, with a different set of house mates and a brand new year. Year 2 - which I promise you is totally terrifying! I am now 1/3 of the way through my course - 2 years away from being a qualified which is proper proper scary.

My scared level right now!

Obviously with each continuing year and semester, what the hospital and the uni expect from you becomes more and more, and so I find myself - a year in, and not entirely sure that I'm ready to be a second year. But hey - how do you know how something's going to go until you dive in!

So aside from being petrified about what the future holds what else is happening in Nurse P's life? Well I've discovered that a dangerous thing to say in my house is "Anyone fancy a brew?", a tolerance/love of Coronation street is vital in the house, and I'd forgotten that Cheerios are lush when your drunk!

Student nurse placement haul!

This is going to be my run down of all the stuff that in my opinion are "must haves" for the student nurse on placement and quite a few are things that I hadn't thought off before I started so hopefully this'll help you too!

• Your Uniform
  
  Might seem a little obvious, but you'd be surprised how long it takes for your uniform to arrive from your universities uniform supplier. It took me several months, and I actually had to use a non university-logoed tunic for my first placement because it was taking them so long to get the logoed ones sent out. So be prepared! You can also get a rebate on the cost of your uniform from the uni, but remember to get your application in before the deadline ... unlike me!
• ID + holder
  
  Depending on your university and depending on the trust you are training will affect the type of ID you
  
  need. For example my trust wanted us to use our normal uni ID for hospital ID, whereas other student nurses with other trusts needed them to get a special Trust ID for student nurses. Any induction days at your trust should tell you about this, but make sure you have what you need. And make sure you have a durable ID holder: some hospitals don't let you use lanyards, and some are fastened with clips kind of like a clothes peg which I don't like because I found it dragged my tunic pocket and annoyed me. There's a kind called a lever clip which I prefer because I found it kept my ID flat against my hip. Similarly if your ID is a hospital ID which opens doors to department and wards then you might want it kept on an extendible ID holder so you don't have to take it off your uniform to use it on doors.
• Pens!
  If you ever want to know how a smoker feels when trying to find a cigarette at 3am then try not having a pen for 5 minutes on the ward. There's a desperation that takes you over as you hunt and hunt and hunt and no-one else seems to be lurking about with a spare pen. So always have a pen in your tunic, and if you want my advice, then always keep a spare in your bag so that that morning when you over sleep and forget a pen - the it's not the end of the world!
• A good quality stain remover
  Your uniform WILL get grotty, and grubby and manky. From general dirt, medication spills or in my

  

  The night shift where my pen
  decided to explode!

  case biro ink! You kind of want to look as presentable as possible for most of the time, so I would recommend investing in some good stain remover. Especially since your uniform will most likely be white, bleach is also pretty good, but it's more or a high maintenance cleaning method as it's a kind of keep an eye on your washing kind of method!
• Lunch box and water bottleYou might be buying lunch at the hospital or you might be bringing a packed lunch, either way I'd recommend having a Tupperware box and a water bottle. Many housekeepers run very strict staff fridges, mine wasn't alowed to hold plastic carrier bags which is why even if I was buying a sandwich from the shop I would shove it in a tupperwear box, you may also find that your houskeeper on the ward requires you to put your name and todays date on your luch - and that's just easiser with tupperwear! Some people are a bit funny about drinking tap water so there are some really funky water bottles you can buy with a kind of built in water filter in the cap. I have never used one so I can't really recommend it, but I know loads
  
  of people in yoga use them and love them so ...
• Jewellery retainersThis one's quite a specific one! But for those of you with any piercings that are facial then you might want to invest in a piercing retainer. If you haven't seen them they're flesh coloured studs that make your piercing almost invisible and because they're flexible they're really safe.
  Depending on your hospital they might be totally cool with you having a facial piercing, or like mine they might not be cool at all! Mine isn't so I wear one in my nose piercing but it's up to you, although it's something worth looking into and considering buying.
• Hair and MakeupOne for the girls among us perhaps! General rule of thumb for nursing staff is that your hair should be above your collar, you'll see plenty of people disobaying this rule, but the only way to escape a bollocking is to follow it. Also - quite aside from any kind of infection control it makes me gag to think of my hair hanging into a wound or something! So I always wear my hair in a bun, a normal bun tends to fall out in my hair so I use a bun doughnut, it was about £2 from Tesco and I wear it every day - so I can't really recommend it highly enough!
  Also invest in a good quality moisturiser and foundation, I'm not one for high end brands or anything - but I haven't found a foundation that stays as well over a 12 hour shift as Bobbi Brown's Skin foundation SPF 15. And the combination of no air, hot wards and long hours with little sleep wreaks havoc on my skin - so make sure to invest in some kick ass moisturiser. I love Simple's light moisturiser but go for what you love!
  
  
  

So I hope that that list is all right for you all - it's not all encompassing and it's not total, and it's just my own personal list of what I felt is needed most on placement. So feel free to comment on what other things you think might be needed, and a massive good luck to anyone starting their nursing course this September!

Just jump in!

This was a piece of advice that I gave to a nurse starting her first placement, on my latest placement I was faced with so many opportunities to try out new skills that I had observed, like making up IV's, catheterising, dressings and passing NG (naso-gastric) tubes. But a lot of these things i.e. the NG tube, will happen occasionally and not on a lot of wards, so if you get the chance to do one - then do it!

A properly placed NG tube on an X-ray

Over my 10 week placement, but the time I reached my 9th week I had seen two NG's being passed, and while on a night shift one needed doing. So - putting on my best confident in this face I asked to do it. It was terrifying, it's easy to put an NG down the trachea instead of the oesophagus for example. (For the record - that is a bad idea!) And obviously, shoving a tube down someone's nose isn't much fun for them, and a lot of people have really strong gag reflexes, some people will try and hit you, scratch you and kick you, but after a point it becomes more important to get the tube down to their stomach to feed them than to avoid being maimed. With the 12 hour shifts and the missed breaks and the poor pay, half the fun of nursing is getting to be a martyr and striding into the house at 8am after a night shift to proclaim: "I got kicked in the stomach tonight but at least Mr Smith isn't going to go into a diabetic coma on my watch!"

Edith Cavell .
A WW1 British nurse, executed for helping Allied soldiers escape occupied Belgium. 

So my tip to the lovely student nurse I met on my (now former) ward, was to just jump in, if you see someone about to do something that you're interested in, then go on and ask if you can watch. I've watched:

• Chest drains, ( I actually became part of Dr Williams' Chest Drain Dream Team!)
• Lumbar punctures,
• PICO dressings,
• A Bronchoalveolar lavage,
• Seen some really funky wounds,
• Passed an NG tube,
• Removed cannulas 
• Watched a load of X-Rays

and many many more things besides. Speaking to the fellow student nurse, she was nervous and was a bit unsure about how to get to do stuff. I tried to reassure her and now I'm trying to reassure you guys too - the way to gain experience is to nag, wheedle and blag your way into watch procedures, because once you've watched once or twice, you can offer to lend a hand for the next few, and after that you can ask to do them yourselves.

Experience breeds Competence

I've now finished that particular 10 week placement, and it's now onwards and upwards, that pesky assignment that I was worried I had failed I passed so I'm clear to move onto the second year! I've moved out of halls (or the prison-cum-psychiatric hospital that my Mam christened it) and into my new shared house which is very exciting, it's going to be fun if a little difficult, we're all very different people with big personalities, different interests, different senses of humour and everything so I'm sure sparks will fly but we're all really close friends and we all love alcohol and bacon so I'm sure that things wont be too bad!

The idea that I'm now a second year student nurse is terrifying, 1/3 of the way through my course, my Mam pointed out that I left high school and started 6th form 3 years ago - and in 3 years time, I'll be a qualified in my blues, hopefully doing everything right (ish)

I'll speak to you all soon, and if any of you are particularly interested then my next post is going to be a "Student nurse haul" blog post, about what you will need for those of you starting your training in September.